Exploring identity and human growth in the age of AI.
Notes on career, cognition, systems, and transformation.

Refactoring
the second half of life.

In my fifties,
I became a father for the first time.

Work, aging, family,
and my remaining time
suddenly became very real.

EPIPHANY: AGE 50+

HYPERSELF is a living journal
about using career theories, psychology,
and everyday failures to refactor my life.

This is my story.
But maybe it is also yours.

  • You feel disappointed with work. But you cannot simply walk away tomorrow.
  • You feel anxious about aging. Not only about money, but about how you will live.
  • Your family changed your priorities. Time suddenly matters more.
  • You are not done yet. Something in you still wants to move.

I am SUBEHITO.
I currently work as a manager
at a call center.

I’ve just been drifting along.
Always giving up, constantly compromising.
I have a mountain of regrets.

"Well, I guess my life is
just going to be like this."

That’s how I’ve lived for so long.

But my newborn son
literally changed the meaning
of the rest of my life.

And I thought,
"I have to refactor my life!"

Around that time, by pure chance,
I encountered the Career Consultant certification.

An acquaintance recommended it,
and I just vaguely reached out for it.

It’s interesting. It might be useful.
"Why not give it a try!?" I thought.


I was completely blown away by
Mark Savickas's theory in the textbook.

We are the ones who give meaning to our lives.
There is no such thing as a meaningless life!

It sounds funny to say it out loud, but
I actually cried reading that textbook. (laughs)


On this website,
I’m going to write down everything I learn here,
my realizations, my stumbles, and my laughs—
everything.

This is my experiment —
but if something moves a little for you too, that would make me happy.


FOR NEWCOMERS

Not sure what this site is? Start here — why I write, what I'm trying to refactor, that kind of thing.


NOW THINKING — CURRENT THEME 2026.05

"Exploring what human growth and identity mean as a first-time father in my 50s during the age of AI. Rather than academic theories, I am testing ideas in real life—between managing a call center and watching my son grow."

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I do not live alone in this world.
I have family, friends,
and probably people out there
who are lost in a similar way.

So I write it down.
What works, what fails,
and what still hurts a little.

Let's refactor our lives, together.